From the Desk of Megan Megale
Megan Megale • September 5, 2019
I know.
I know everything you are feeling, everything you are missing and everything you wish were different. Losing someone, especially a young adullt, makes you wonder whether your life will ever be good again and if you will ever return to any sense of normalcy.
I still carry Matt’s hat with me everywhere I go. Many a times I have been in a business situation to unapologetically have it fall out of my briefcase and think to myself “don’t even go there because this meeting in the scope of what now matters to me is unimportant.”
When Matt passed, I was so confused at what was happening. I sat in the big leather chair in my office and just stared out the window tears streaming down my face. At first I cried all day, then 10 times a day, then 5 then 2. Now, 18 months later, I still cry every day, but never is he out of my mind.
What I do know is this. Parenting Matthew was a privilege I would not trade even knowing the outcome. He was everything I had hoped he would be, strong, loving and a reminder to the world of what a perfect heart looks like. Heroin took that from us all and I will dedicate my life to letting heroin know, Matt may not have been strong enough to overcome you, but I am. You have met your match in me and I will do everything in my power in honor of Matt, to eliminate it from continuing to ruin more lives. I now do that for your child as well.
It does get better. Your heart will never heal, but you will find a strength in you that will propel you to disallow their lives from being defined by addiction. Matt’s life was a life of purpose.
Mine now is too. Matt gave that to me.
Allow American Boy to give that to you.
